I love turning chaos into organization. There is something very satisfying about walking into a room of people who are looking down at their pile of issues, and they look to me and ask “what do you think?” One of my favorite movies of ALL TIME is Apollo 13. There is a scene in the movie where they engineers have to figure out how to create a CO2 filter from one size that fits in the hole for another size.
The reward is SO great when these obstacles are overcome. You look around and just want to high-five anyone standing there.
However, I am a creature of habit. Well, a creature of many habits to be precise. Some of these are good habits. I eat right (mostly). I exercise some. I read a lot. You get the picture. Then, some of these habits are not so good. In fact, some of these addictive behaviors can become quite harmful and destructive if gone unchecked. One such habit that I’ve fought on and off through most of my life has been especially challenging. And until last month, I thought I’d never kick it. However, God has been working on my heart over the past few months to slowly (on my part, not God’s) help me understand just how great the truth is that Jesus not only died for my sins, but came to “set the captives free.” This freedom extends into areas of habits and addictions, where the pull is so strong, and the feeling is you’ll never get out. When I fully understand how beautiful and treasured Christ is, that joy and satisfaction in Him will expel the sinful habits from my life. Sometimes this is slow, sometimes much more quickly.
So, last month, I began experiencing a measure of freedom in this area. It was nothing spectacular at first. No visions or bright lights or crazy dreams. Just a growing realization that I’m not craving that which I had craved before. It was wonderful. For about 6 weeks, I experienced complete freedom. My awareness and presence in life was sharpened, my relationships with my wife, children, and friends grew stronger. It was incredible. While it lasted.
The other day, I found myself thinking about this habit and how nice it would be to experience it again. So… I did. And, of course, it wasn’t as exciting and enjoyable as my brain tells me it will be. In fact, it was quite miserable. Though that did not stop me from partaking, God definitely used it to remind me once again that He is the ultimate answer.
So, it left me wondering today: Now what? Have I suddenly lost all that ground I had gained? Am I suddenly “back to square one”? I used to count the days, weeks, and months. But that led to widely oscillating cycles of despair and pride. No good for me. Now, I just focus on each day and enjoy the freedom Christ has given me. So, today, I look upward to God for the strength He gives, and I give that habit the equivalent of an MMA-style knockout kick.
Is this easy? NO, NO, NO! In fact, I suspect the guy delivering this knockout blow had probably been hurt pretty badly during this fight. No, kicking these habits is never easy. But the process is very simply defined. I cling to truth. Winston Churchhill once said “The Truth is the most valuable thing in the world. Indeed, it is so valuable that it is often protected by a bodyguard of lies.” My habits and addictions tell me lies about who I am. My only solution? I take names like
Child of the One True King
Co-Heir with Christ
Mighty Warrior in Christ
Yep… Kicking Habits and Taking Names… So, go look at those nasty habits in the face, and rather than rely on our own strength, give them over to the one who has given your very meaning in life. And kick those habits right out of your life! Join me!